Things get very quiet when you're alone. There is this eerie stillness that I'm not use to. For about a second it's comfortable. Then the restlessness kicks in and I start searching for things to stimulate my brain and put me to work. I reach for my phone, who can I text? Do I feel like calling anyone? Check out Facebook, another sad video on my feed. Scroll through Instagram, same old spam photos. Twitter? I can't read another “OMG Facts.” Then I go right back to my contacts only egging the process on once again.
I’m sure you’ve heard these things before and you’re thinking “Sarah, stop being so cliché.” But ask yourself this, If He really is the same as He has always been, then why in the world do we expect Him to act any different? As much as I would love it, the great I AM is not going to send me a text message to get my attention, well not directly at least. He will meet us the same way He met those in the days of old.
“Be still before the Lord and wait patiently for him; fret not yourself over
the one who prospers in his way, over the man who
carries out his evil devices.”
Often I have found myself jumping into action whenmy prayers would have probably been more useful. I think we have lost our understanding of the importance of this spiritual discipline because we don’t know how to comfortably be still anymore.None of us naturally do things we aren’t comfortable with, either. I catch myself thinking I have to go, do, work for His kingdom and forget nothing gets accomplished if I jump the gun and go before He signals. Like a chicken with its head cut off we are running in circles trying to do good work and we have no idea where we are going.
I don’t sit still because I don’t like being alone with myself very much. You hear the phrase “you are your own worst enemy,” and I am the poster child for it. I’ve mentioned before the struggle to find my worth in Christ alone and how I still fall prey to the lies of the enemy. Well, this is an example of that temptation daily. If I believed fully that I have been made clean enough to enter into the Presence of God then I would have less of a problem tuning the world out every now and then and simply being quiet with Him. Thankfully my faith only needs to be the size of a mustard seed for Him to work.
The more I try this concept of “being quiet,” the easier it gets. His peace begins to feel like a hand resting on my back. So in essence I’m not really alone, I’m just quiet. For some of us this may be the first time all day that we stopped talking to listen. I feel like my days are longer and the opportunities I should pursue are clearer when I have this attitude toward the Lord. A lot of people will chalk this up to me just clearing my head and being able to focus, but I disagree. For I know that I have the Spirit alive in me and when I’m quiet for even a moment it is able to make the way known.
His desire for us is to have peace with Him and through Him. Yes He can speak through the noise of life, but how much more tenderly may we hear His voice when He can whisper in the silence.
But I guess all in all you have to want it. You have to really want to know His heart and fellowship with him. We are a people who go after what we want.
“For where your treasure is, there your heart will be also.”
I believe there has been no other time in the history of mankind that this scripture could be truer. We have more and more opportunity to seek after our dreams. Is a relationship with the Father a dream for you? How bad do you want it and what would you give up in order to attain it? Just be honest with yourself and go from there. Nobody wants you to fake your way through life, especially Him.
“When He [God] talks of their losing their selves, He means only abandoning the clamour of self-will; once they have done that, He really gives them back all their personality, and boasts (I am afraid, sincerely) that when they are wholly His they will be more themselves than ever.”
-C.S. Lewis, The Screwtape Letters